how the fuck do you deal with a father who is emotionally and verbally abusive that you want to kill yourself? Sorry if this question was heavy and made you feel uncomfortable but I have no one to talk to, and you seem to reply to your anon questions regularly….
Hmmmmmm, this is interesting cause if it was a random person or friend being verbally abusive you could easily just cut them out of your life, but this is different. Honestly, I’ve never really been in a situation like this before.
I would say my first bit of advice is to know that you are worth EVERYTHING. Never let anyone think that your only option is to kill yourself because you will never find out what AMAZING things you have to offer to the world (and you do have amazing things to offer whether you believe it or not) and you would take away everything you currently offer from everyone you know! Life is the absolute BEST thing given to us and to just throw it away would mean missing out on EVERYTHING. You change and affect people’s lives everyday without even noticing it! You have the power to change somebodies day completely around just by smiling at them as they walk down the street or complimenting something they are wearing u know? Even if your having a shitty day and are having dark thoughts somebody else you may not even know needs you!
Secondly, I would do my best to stay at a friends house a lot or anywhere other than home tell I was 18 and then GET. OUT! I don’t know the entire situation obviously but I do know a father should not be verbally abusive and ESPECIALLY not physically abusive with their kid. Like WTF?! No no no, thats not ok AT ALLLLLLL!
OBVIOUSLY if things get out of hand the FIRST thing you need to do is call the damn cops! Like your safety is first and if shit gets real you have to be ready to that u know?
Lastly, and this you probably have already done, you should let him know how he is effecting you and to the severity that he is effecting you! Like if he knows you are feeling this way and continues to be a crazy person then you really need to think about moving out ASAP or contacting someone who can help you!
I hope This helps! Like I said I’ve never really been in this sort of situation so I’m only speaking theoretically! But I LOVE YOU!!!! Know that much!